“You got to kill the person you were born to be,
in order to become the person you want to be.”
(Wilson to Elton John)
I’ve sat with this and although profound, I would venture to tweak it a bit.
It’s more that we start out in Life as our authentic self. Sometimes we carry on, to live our truth, most times, we do not. We let go of ourselves and we become a conditioned version of our self. We abandon our truth, to fit for others; our family, society, the status quo. We force ourselves to live up to what we feel those in our lives want from us. We squeeze ourselves into the mold someone else has designed for us.
Then at some point it becomes so difficult, so intolerable that you just can’t do it anymore and you begin to find your way back to who you are. To love you, embrace you, enjoy you and live you.
You don’t kill who you were born to be. You break free from who you tried to be. You don’t become so much who you want to be, as you allow yourself to be who you truly are.
You release the lie and grab hold of the truth.
In the film Rocketman, Elton John was being himself, but he wasn’t loving himself. He was miserable waiting for those he wanted love from. From those he felt were meant to love him for who he was. But as much as we may think it is the job of others to give this to us, it’s not.
Energy works from the inside out, “As within, so without.” Others may reach out to us with love, but if we don’t have it for ourselves within, it doesn’t tend to last. We even push it away, not knowing what to do with it, not trusting it or not wanting it if it isn’t from the one’s we are holding out for.
Elton as a boy is waiting for someone to hug him. One day, as a man this boy comes to him in a vision and asks, “When are you going to hug me?” Elton finally realizes he is a man now and he needs to hug this boy, he needs to love this boy who’s been waiting. Waiting for him to stop, stop waiting on others. Because the boy inside of him had always been waiting on him.
This is true for all of us. Once we are adults, we are the adult. It’s up to us to help the child inside us. To right the wrongs, to hug them, to tell them we love them, that we love ourselves. It’s up to us now to grant ourselves the freedom to be.
No more waiting on them, because we’ve always been waiting on ourselves.
Rocketman; 2019 Biographical Musical Film, based on the life of musician Elton John
Photos & Video: Young Reggie played by Matthew Illesley and Elton John played by Taron Egerton.